Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Unhappy

Kaswyn is still not sound. He's not lame but he's still taking a short stride on the left front. I can tell that when I do the left shoulder stretches that he's sore, and it's painful.

I have Dr. Chiro coming back out on Thursday. I know that he's only had one treatment and I've only been doing the stretching and exercises for two weeks, but frankly I'm frustrated and impatient. I've done every treatment that the vets and other equine professionals have suggested. I have faithfully followed all instructions on drugs, supplements, rehab, wound care, and work schedules.

I know people mean well, but I really don't want to hear how I should retire him. There is no reason for me to retire this horse yet. If he had an "end of the line" diagnosis I would retire him immediately. If he had bad ringbone, or degenerate hocks, or scarred and ruined suspensory ligaments, then sure, I'd retire him. But no vet so far has been able to find anything but a little arthritis in his left rear fetlock (that he's had for ten years) and spots on his navicular bone, which he can't feel now due to the neurectomy. Nothing that should be keeping this horse in pain. So I'm not giving up yet. Stop telling me to. I WON'T.

I can't afford to buy Lee. Rather, I can't afford to keep two horses. So no, Lee can't be my next horse. Yes, it would be fun to buy and own him. But I can't. And even if I did I would not stop trying to heal my Kaswyn.

So, I'm sending a plea to the horse healing gods out there. For 14 years Kaswyn was sound, and I was lucky. For the past five and a half he's had issues. I've done my time, paid my vet bills. Please let this saga be over. Help me find a way to heal my horse.

I'm not giving up.

7 comments:

Maggie said...

Prayers going up to the horse healing gods. I hope you can finally get answers (and a cure) for why he's in pain.

He sounds like the kind of guy who'd rather be working than laid up.

Anonymous said...

Maybe find him a new job where exact perfection in his way of going isn't required.

Then you will not be as worried about the tiny bit of less than 10 trot, and Kaswyn can stop being poked and prodded by medical folks.

Stacey Kimmel-Smith said...

I want those healing gods to do a little OT on your behalf. You deserve it, and Kaswyn deserves it.

Heather B said...

I understand the despair you are feeling. I emailed you not too long ago about my horse, who is having very similar "why is he lame" issues. My horse is just 11, and I get really frustrated when people start discussing my next horse. How can you discuss this when mine is young and beautiful and has an amazing personality? It hurts my heart to think about anything other than riding my horse again, carefree and enjoying his strength and willing heart. My prayers to you and Kaswyn for healing and health and more than anything else, the answer to the question, "Why?"

Val said...

I am sorry that this has not gone away yet, but it sounds like you have found the source of the pain: his shoulder. This could be a very good thing!

Jen said...

Kaswyn has been compensating for a long time; nothing will be a quick fix. Sometimes you have to go through a lot of stuff that doesn't work to find the thing that does. I know it's been a long hard road, but it sure sounds like you two are finally heading in the right direction.
Hang in there and forget the horse healing gods; just ask the real one. He has a special place in His heart for horses (look at Job 39:19 ;o)

achieve1dream said...

Sorry you're going through this. Stick with it though because the Chiro really sounded like she was on to something.

 
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