Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Let me 'splain

So, I'm done with my little temper tantrum. Sorry about that.

Yeah, it's not that big a deal that people say I should retire Kaswyn and buy Lee. I shouldn't be such an over-reactive snot about it. I was just really frustrated about Kaswyn, and I was feeling sorry for myself. Believe me, I wish I could buy Lee too. He's great, and he works well for me. I just can't afford it. That makes me sad.

So I just got overwhelmed and was feeling bad. I'm less drama queen about it now.

It helps that I have a bit of hope right now. I asked for help with the biomechanics from a gal at the barn who rode for two years with the Masso/Bio lady. This gal, T, rode Kaswyn yesterday and he was much more even when she got him straight. And he seemed very willing to do it. So hopefully she can continue to help me with him.

Masso/Bio lady had a bit of a setback - she fell from a horse, broke her leg, and had to have surgery. She hasn't been out in weeks but is coming out tomorrow to help me. I really hope I can get this whole thing sometime soon. The problem ia Kaswyn isn't straight but he's been crooked so long that it feels normal to me. If I can't feel it, I can't fix it. And right now I can't feel it!

Anyhow, sorry about the tantrum. I'll try and control my snotty self!


Kate said...

Hey, I know half the reason I started my blog was to rant with nobody telling me to shut up. That plan backfired, when a bunch of people I know found out about my blog. However, if people didn't want to hear about it they wouldn't read the post, so don't go feeling guilty.
I hope tomorrow goes well for you and KAswyn!

Minus Pride said...

When I can't get something right (&can't afford a lesson from the right person) I video-record myself, and show my boyfriend exactly what I'm doing wrong. Then he watches me ride and tells me when and where I do it wrong. It helps me...maybe you can use some variation of that!!!

Ms Martyr said...

It's your blog and you can vent all you want. Does not riding Lee straight help you to feel Kaswyn better or do you subconsciously adjust to Kaswyn's way of going as "normal"?

Dressage Mom said...

Minus Pride - I can get it right if I have somsone there telling me when it's right, but if nobody is there I struggle. I'll get it eventually, but right now I'm having issues!

Mrs. Martyr - I can feel when other horses are crooked, just not mine! It's very frustrating. You'd think I'd be able to, but with Kaswyn I can't. Too familier with him, I guess (which is turning out to be both a blessing and a curse).

Laura said...

Everyone is allowed to wallow at some point, and you actually deserve a good wallow!

It sounds like you've been making progress, albeit slowly. I'm a "I want it all and I want it now person" and it's hard to be patient. Having someone watch will help with straightening things out - all of them!!

Rising Rainbow said...

I can understand why you don't want to retire Kaswyn and why you'd be frustrated with people telling you that you should. I think venting is totally allowed. No apologies needed.

Hopefully, you're getting the bottom of this soreness with Kaswyn. Ribs out can be very uncomfortable and it sounds from his reaction to the adjustment that his were really out. Sometimes it takes some time to get all that soreness worked out.

achieve1dream said...

Yeah don't apologize for having a moment. We all do. :)

I'm glad the lady from the barn is helping you out. It sounds like she might be a big help. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you and Kaswyn.

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