Tuesday, December 16, 2008

The Surgery. Part 9 - Dr. Neuro

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Since the doctor was standing right in front of me, I reached out and grabbed his hands so that I wouldn't fall face first onto the floor. He asked "Are you alright?" and I shook my head and started to cry. Fortunately there were four nurses right there, and he said to them"She's not okay. We need to get her to a bed."

I can't remember if I walked or they carried me, but they got me into a bed and took my pulse and blood pressure. My pulse was around 125 and my blood pressure was really high also. I was freaking out that I'd have another seizure and was scared to bits. They had another embryologist do my procedures and called Craig. He had the day off and was in the garage doing some work, so he didn't hear his phone. I finally calmed down and didn't have a seizure. They were able to finally contact Craig and he came to pick me up. It was a huge scene and was very embarrassing.

While Craig was there I called the neurologists office (who is in the same building) and told them what had just happened. They alerted Dr. Neuro, who agreed to stay late and see me that evening. I gave him my whole history, he did a complete neurological workup, and ordered a CT scan and an EEG.

The CT scan was no big deal. The EEG really freaked me out because I knew that they would flash strobe lights at me and I was scared that would bring on a seizure. However, I did not have a seizure so I did all that worrying for nothing. A few days after all the tests were completed I went to see Dr. Neuro again, who told me my tests were normal and concluded that my seizures were psychogenic non-epileptic seizures. Which means that in times of great stress my body just shuts down to protect my mental status and I have a seizure.

Great. So it all really is in my head, and I'm just a big stress case. And I need to fix it, because I can't just have a seizure every time I get stressed out. Like if one of the kids barf. Or if I have to have surgery. Oh yeah, I AM having surgery, and soon too. Crap.

Time to see a psychologist.

Part 10 - Dr. Shrink


Katee said...

Glad to know that you don't have epilepsy. My mother has had epilepsy since she was 18 years old. She was medicated to the extent that she didn't have grand mal seizures at home, but she did have smaller seizures about twice a week where she just seemed to suddenly stop for about 30 seconds. Couldn't speak, couldn't move, but was aware of what was going on around her.

In your case I would struggle with the fact that worrying about not stressing out and making myself have a seizure would be STRESSFUL. Every little stress would be multiplied by my worry that I'd have a seizure if I didn't calm down.

Hopefully Dr. Shrink can teach you some calming tricks that will be strong tools against little kid barf!

Rising Rainbow said...

I doubt you're a nut case......I think I have that one covered pretty well though! LOL

Kelly (ridegroomfeed) said...

Link broken here, too. Must got dig around to find it elsewhere!

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